Haywire
A self-portrait which was titled "Haywire".
Don't you ever wonder what is going on in someone's mind? Well for mine there is this space inside my mind like there is another "me" inside of it. The inner me who is holding in all the unwanted emotions that I do not want anyone to see, from being clumsy and breaking things, crying without reason or getting mad easily because I was having a rough day. I started keeping all my real feelings in since nobody really likes them and just called me careless and dramatic because of it.
There are two me in this, the inner me who is bleeding through my fingers trying to let go of my emotions where the blood are all my emotions flowing out. Then there is the outer me which is the me who is presented to others, is stuck in the mirror and screaming and yelling to tell the inner me to stop pouring the emotions out. If you look closely the inner me has really dark eye bags since I have insomnia, where I usually take up to 1-3 hours to fall asleep. The mirror acts as a barricade where I locked up all my emotions, the eyes that are above the ceiling are from the eyes of other people judging me. The tentacles are actually connected to the ceiling and are the people who are making it hard for me to keep my emotions in and trying to ruin the barricade which is the mirror. The other two mirrors beside the one the outer me is stuck in are mirrors of the unknown, like where does it lead? Do the mirrors end there? Are these my real emotions?
Progression of artwork:
